There is one big word that consumes the thought of having to grow up and that word is:
Responsibility.
When I was 9 years old I was scared to grow up. On my 10th birthday I cried because I had finally turned double digits. When I was 12 I cried that I would become a teenager. I would watch old home movies of myself when I was a baby and a toddler and think of where the time had gone. Why did I cry? I was scared. I was scared of the responsibilities that came with a new age. I didn’t know if I would be able to keep up with all the new things that came into life every step of the way I was scared to fail.
Responsibility is hard, really hard. Now 17 going on 18 I realize how big of a responsibility I have within my own life. You have to have a job to pay for your car (which gets you to work and school), your phone bills (if you’re lucky like me your parents still pay for yours), you have to find time in between your social/ work/ and school life to finally eat something and get a few hours of rest before you have to wake up and start running again. It seems like your life is truly in the fast lane going one hundred miles an hour towards being on your own and you don’t feel prepared to leave for that destination.
There are a lot of things to be scared about going into your senior year of high school. Everyone is always expected to go to college, but hey if that’s not your thing then don’t go. College will always be there and there is no shame in going later in life if you need a few years to decide what you want to do. But that’s the next thing. You are expected to know your major and minor and exactly what top three colleges have the best programs and price ranges for you. When did growing up become so hard? And when did having to make decisions become so not prominent?
The thing about growing up and adding more responsibilities is stressful. School is draining. You are there for 7+ hours a day and then you go home and do at least an hour of homework every night on top of sports games and your job. It is scary to think of college next year. To have to leave your house and not see your best friend at school every day.
You wonder if you will find a new group of friends in college and you hope you figure out what you want to pursue as your career for the rest of your life. But don’t forget you still have senior year. Enjoy every waking moment you have with your group of friends because come next August you won’t see them every day anymore. If you are still worried about fitting in with the crowd come senior year stop trying to please people. You have one year left. No one is going to care if you are wearing uggs and buckle jeans. Who ever made up the rule that you have to wear what everyone else is wearing? Are we not individual people? You can have your own style and your own personality, so rock it how you want. High school isn’t suppose to be about pleasing others. It is about finding yourself. The future ahead still awaits us.
We are expected to keep it all inside and not show how scared we really are. Scared about our future. Will we make it?
Being afraid is scary but sometimes, just sometimes it is okay to be afraid. And it is okay to not have an answer to every question.
Responsibility.
When I was 9 years old I was scared to grow up. On my 10th birthday I cried because I had finally turned double digits. When I was 12 I cried that I would become a teenager. I would watch old home movies of myself when I was a baby and a toddler and think of where the time had gone. Why did I cry? I was scared. I was scared of the responsibilities that came with a new age. I didn’t know if I would be able to keep up with all the new things that came into life every step of the way I was scared to fail.
Responsibility is hard, really hard. Now 17 going on 18 I realize how big of a responsibility I have within my own life. You have to have a job to pay for your car (which gets you to work and school), your phone bills (if you’re lucky like me your parents still pay for yours), you have to find time in between your social/ work/ and school life to finally eat something and get a few hours of rest before you have to wake up and start running again. It seems like your life is truly in the fast lane going one hundred miles an hour towards being on your own and you don’t feel prepared to leave for that destination.
There are a lot of things to be scared about going into your senior year of high school. Everyone is always expected to go to college, but hey if that’s not your thing then don’t go. College will always be there and there is no shame in going later in life if you need a few years to decide what you want to do. But that’s the next thing. You are expected to know your major and minor and exactly what top three colleges have the best programs and price ranges for you. When did growing up become so hard? And when did having to make decisions become so not prominent?
The thing about growing up and adding more responsibilities is stressful. School is draining. You are there for 7+ hours a day and then you go home and do at least an hour of homework every night on top of sports games and your job. It is scary to think of college next year. To have to leave your house and not see your best friend at school every day.
You wonder if you will find a new group of friends in college and you hope you figure out what you want to pursue as your career for the rest of your life. But don’t forget you still have senior year. Enjoy every waking moment you have with your group of friends because come next August you won’t see them every day anymore. If you are still worried about fitting in with the crowd come senior year stop trying to please people. You have one year left. No one is going to care if you are wearing uggs and buckle jeans. Who ever made up the rule that you have to wear what everyone else is wearing? Are we not individual people? You can have your own style and your own personality, so rock it how you want. High school isn’t suppose to be about pleasing others. It is about finding yourself. The future ahead still awaits us.
We are expected to keep it all inside and not show how scared we really are. Scared about our future. Will we make it?
Being afraid is scary but sometimes, just sometimes it is okay to be afraid. And it is okay to not have an answer to every question.
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